I saw him for about 10 seconds but for some reason, I had this weird feeling between us. Almost like we were strangers… I know he wanted to say something but he was speechless and so was I. I didn’t know what to do. I wanted to hug him or kiss him but at the same time, it felt wrong, like I shouldn’t do it…
Idk, I dnt think I should be feeling this way… >.< something’s wrong.

I know what I did was wrong. I also knew that I shouldn’t be doing it. But at the time, I just didn’t care. I wanted to do it but also, I couldn’t remember why it was wrong. I couldn’t remember the reason why what I was doing was wrong. I felt free. Like I could do whatever I want without anybody judging me or telling me that I shouldn’t be acting that sort of way. Idk, should I be disappointed with myself for what we did?

She did it again but I saw it coming. Matt told me that she wanted to hang out with us and bring her friend along. He asked me if I was okai with it and I told him I didn’t mine but I knew she would bail out like always. I told him that if she’s 15 minutes late, we’re going in and eating WITHOUT her… She wasn’t there when we got there. And she never showed. She texted him tho, saying “see you Friday” -_-
Well guess what? Matt’s working on Friday…
She always does this to us and to me. That’s why I gave up on her. Real friends don’t bail out on you every single time you wanna hang out and I’m pretty sure she doesn’t care…
Matt was upset. He says he’s tired of her bailing every single time they’re “suppose to hang out”. Told me that he’s just gonna take her out of his life. He’s finally caught up with the rest of us…
Now I avoid her cuz I dnt like being let down and she always does that to me. Matt finally realized it too. But it’s okai; she DOESN’T CARE!

maybe i’ll feel better in the morning…